Driving

Driving
 
Floating

Memories drift

Time unfolds

Peacefull

Melancholy

Fills me

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Slow Day

Slow Day

Had a slow day today
Watched the world flow today

Soft music trickled past
Rain caressed the grass

Slow day today
Time flowed away

The plan

Written 3 years ago 5-10-07


The boy I was, Before I became a man.

Is chained up deep inside of me !

Now he's awake and devising a plan .

To cheer the soul of this sorrowful man !!


5-13-07

Ok ! I’ve been working on a plan to cheer up my sorrowful Ass ! I'm tired of being locked in the dark side of my brain, it's not a good place to be and damn hard to escape from!!

I remember moments and I've seen some amazing thing's, places, people, sunset's, waterfalls, creek's, river's, desert's and the endless always changing horizon as I drove my truck, beautiful things do exist I'm sure of it !

So why do I live in the dark side of my mind when all these beautiful memories exist ??

Finally we get to my plan !
I want to fill my mind with so many of these beautiful images, that the dark side get's crushed into a little spot I can lock away forever ! Real, imagined, pictures, film or book's it doesn't matter!



Today 5-15-10 3 years later

The plan continues and is working!

……….I now…………

Play more, explore more, photograph more and

See more beauty in the world then ever before.

Sun shines, Wind blows,

I breathe, I smile.

What more than this is required?

I remember this day well,

A pleasantly warm, breeze pushed the mosquitos away

The sun shone brightly in the lightly clouded blue sky

The world felt magnificently huge as its power pulsed around me

All felt good

All felt right

I was at peace with my self

The machine never stops

Time stands still in a loop

Fill, Compress, Eject, RESET…
Fill, Compress, Eject, RESET…
Fill, Compress, Eject, RESET…

Bright Unnatural light
Burns my eyes

Fill, Compress, Eject, RESET…

Acrid dust floats in the air
Thickening each breathe

Fill, Compress, Eject, RESET…

Loud rhythmic sound
Beats loudly

Fill, Compress, Eject, RESET…

Sight blurs, Noises cease, Warm Fog blankets me
As I travel through time to a different place….

Sitting at a small desk,
The smell of crayons and construction paper fills the air
Before me a child’s hand holding a yellow pencil
Quietly rests on a blank piece of paper.

Out a window to my left a large fall storm can be seen,
It captures and captivates me.

The world is Black; clouds chaotically roll across the sky,
Rain threatens, then falls
Trees whip violently about.
Wind chases multicolored leaves hurriedly about..

The buzzer goes off, mind clears
I’M BACK

Fill, Compress, Eject, RESET…
Fill, Compress, Eject, RESET…
Fill, Compress, Eject, RESET…

The Marsh

(Pics from March 09)

Missing mud season,

I Wanna put on my boots and play!

Go to the marsh stomp some mud and play!

Breathe in the air, forget yesterday, and play!

Feel the sun, feel the wind and play!

Look at the sky; look at the world and play!

Because----I’m alive when I play!!

(From 3-14-10)

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I went to the marsh today

Watched dead leaves-Frolic and play

Walked through plowed fields- sank deep in the mud

Waded in water- that is spring flood

As I Stood next to a tree-

Watching water trickled by

I Thought about-

The world, My Life

and Why

(From 3-25-10)

A day in may 07

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I try to capture the moment but its not possible, so much is missing the feel of the cool morning air, the humid smell of the swamp,

The sound of birds awakening at dawn, the gentle rocking motion of the canoe and the immense size of the sky !

I try to capture the moment, but I can’t. just like all the great moments in my life they just seem to disappear into the past,

Into the back recesses of my mind and I can’t even tell somebody about them because I don’t know how to Verbalize how I feel when I’m in those moments.

See that paragraph sounds sappy to me ,

wish I knew how to talk !!

(email I sent in 08)

--The River at sunrise--

Serenely floating in the fog.

The Smell of fresh cut hay fills the air.

Night sounds whisper in my ear.

A cool light breeze brush’s my face.

My troubled thoughts quiet momentarily

As the world gently surrounds me !

Sometimes its awesome to be alive !

-Sometimes-